So, quick update! My site is finally working again 🙌 and I know I’ve been venting a lot lately — wedding stress, tech issues, all of it — but I wanted to share a little more about why this wedding means so much to me.
This wedding isn’t just about the day itself. It’s about giving my mom the celebration she’s never had. Her first wedding, to my bio dad, was small like family only and pressured by family expectations. the whole they had a kid thing, living in sin no biggie. She was young, and they were both just starting their lives with me in tow. Her second wedding, to my dad, was a quiet courthouse affair — no big ceremony or party. And then my siblings both did the same: courthouse weddings, and no one even thought to invite for my parents. So, for me, it’s important that this time, my mom gets to experience a wedding.
The timing has made everything feel even more significant. I haven’t talked about it but my mom’s health is a bit uncertain right now. There’s a mass, but nothing is confirmed yet, and she’s scheduled for a biopsy next month. It’s a reminder that I want her here for all of life’s big moments — and that includes the wedding, my future pregnancy (yes, TMI, but we’re starting to try for a baby soon), and whatever comes next.
Now, I do need to keep it real — this is a small, budget-friendly wedding, and it’s happening in our friend’s backyard. It’s not about luxury, it’s about love and creating meaningful memories. Plus, there’s a chance our wedding could be slightly overshadowed by the World Series — we’re planning for the same night as Game 6, in case the series goes that far. But honestly, if we can’t compete with a Game 6, I’m okay with it! I’ll just be happy that my mom’s there, and I’m surrounded by the people I love, celebrating something that’s meaningful for all of us.
So, as the countdown continues, I’m leaning into the joy. Despite the challenges, despite the tech issues, despite the low budget, and despite the family problems. I know this is a moment that matters. It’s for my mom, yes, but also for all of us to hold on to something beautiful amidst the craziness.
Thanks so much for all your support as we get closer to the big day! Now, let’s just hope the only drama we’re dealing with that night is a baseball game — because the Dodgers better fucking win!!! I mean, if I’m going to share the spotlight with the World Series, at least make it worth it, right?
