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Welcome to September

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September 1st has always been important to me.

Not in the normal ā€œnew month, new goalsā€ kind of way. I have always treated September 1st like it was an event.

If you know me, you probably know where this comes from.

I used to be a huge Harry Potter fan, and September 1st was obviously the day. In the books, this was the day the kids packed their trunks, said goodbye to their parents, and boarded the Hogwarts Express from Platform 9¾. So naturally, every September 1st felt a little magical.

At one point, I even wrote about September 1st through the lens ofĀ Heathers, because the opening of ā€œBeautifulā€ starts with Veronica saying, ā€œDear Diary, September 1st,ā€ and apparently that was enough for my brain to decide that September 1st needed its own little annual ceremony.

So for years, September 1st has been one of those dates that justĀ means somethingĀ to me.

It used to be the beginning of a new school year, but now kids go to school in August. It’s the unofficial beginning of fall in my brain. It’s Hogwarts Express day. It’sĀ HeathersĀ day. It’s the point where summer starts feeling like it’s officially on its way out and the rest of the year suddenly feels very real.

And usually, September 1st means I get to sit down and write some sort of dramatic little reflection about the month ahead.

Except this year, I have a slightly bigger problem.

It’s a new month, a new day, and somehow we are officially in the month where this baby could decide to show up at literally any point.

And honestly, I really thought that by the time September got here, I would be completely done talking about pregnancy.

I thought between June and September I would have discussed everything baby-related. I figured three months would be plenty of time to get it all out of my system. The pregnancy, the fears, the excitement, the things I didn’t expect, the things that stressed me out, the things that made me laugh, the things I was looking forward to, and all of the random thoughts that have been taking up space in my brain.

I thought by September I would have nothing left to say.

Apparently, I was very wrong.

Because somehow it is September 1st and I still have things I haven’t talked about.

So I guess this is officially the countdown now. Unfortunately for me, it’s a very literal countdown because baby girl could come any day. I don’t know if I have a few weeks left or if she could decide tomorrow is the day, which makes planning anything slightly difficult.

I do want to address some of the things I haven’t talked about yet, and hopefully I can get some of them out before baby girl gets here. But for now, I’m trying to keep things loose.

I don’t want to make some elaborate content calendar where I have to write about a specific topic on a specific day when I don’t even know what the next few weeks are going to look like.

At this point, I have approximately 4 things planned:

  • Get to California.
  • Get settled enough to function.
  • Have a baby.
  • Don’t die in labor.

That’s it. That’s the plan.

And honestly, the closer we get to the end of this year, the more I keep thinking about my word of the year: alignment.

Because do I even understand what alignment means for me anymore?

At the beginning of the year, I thought I did. I had an idea of where I wanted my life to go and what I thought getting into alignment with that life would look like.

And then this year happened.

Plans changed. Timelines changed. Things I thought would happen didn’t happen, and things I stopped planning for happened anyway.

So now I’m sitting here in September, pregnant, still figuring out where I’m going to be, waiting for a baby who could completely change the timeline again, and wondering if I actually understand the word I chose for this year.

Maybe alignment doesn’t mean everything goes according to plan.

Maybe it’s learning how to move forward when the plan changes.

Maybe it’s accepting that sometimes you can do everything you thought you were supposed to do and still end up somewhere completely different.

Or maybe I will finally figure out what I meant by alignment sometime between now and December.

For now, I’m just welcoming September, trying to enjoy whatever time I have left before baby girl gets here, and giving myself permission to keep things loose.

I still have things to say.

I just don’t know how much time I have left to say them before this baby decides she’s ready to make her entrance.

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Hello August

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It’s officially August, which means I’m officially in baby shower countdown mode. OnlyĀ 15 days to go!

Since I’m currently in Las Vegas, I’ve gotten so many questions from family asking if the baby shower is still happening in California. And I’m just… why wouldn’t it be? šŸ˜‚ I’ve been posting about getting my mom’s outfit ready, planning makeup, renting the venue, and all the little details. If anything had changed, trust me, you all would know. I’m such a perfectionist that I would have made at least three posts about it by now.

Now that my little rant is over…

I’m honestly getting so nervous about how everything is going to come together. So far, nobody has RSVP’d, which definitely isn’t helping my anxiety. I’ll be heading back to California on the 8th so I have a full week to finish preparing, grab any last-minute items, organize the food, and hopefully make sure everything runs smoothly.

As stressful as it feels, I know this is just the beginning. I’ve got years of birthday parties, school events, and celebrations ahead of me before this little girl decides she’s too cool for family parties. I think I was around 10 or 11 when I stopped wanting big birthday parties and just wanted to go to the skating rink with my friends instead.

It also helps that she’ll have a fall birthday. My birthdays were always in cold, rainy February, so outdoor parties were basically never an option. She’ll (hopefully) get that beautiful fall weather where picnics, parks, and backyard parties are actually possible.

I think I’ve shared the theme before, but we’re doingĀ Winnie the PoohĀ withĀ ā€œA Little Honey Is on the Way.ā€Ā Think bees, lots of yellow, honey pots, cute games, and all the cozy Hundred Acre Wood vibes. I cannot wait to see it all come together.

I’m probably going to laugh so much that I’ll get myself I’m going into early labor—which is obviously a joke. šŸ˜… I’ll only be 33 weeks at the baby shower, so she needs to stay put a little longer.

I’m just hoping it’s a fun, relaxing day where we get to celebrate this little girl before life gets a whole lot busier.

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Mid-Year Check-In: Maybe This Is What Alignment Actually Looks Like

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At the beginning of this year, I choseĀ alignmentĀ as my word of the year.

I wrote that I used to think balance meant doing everything all at once. Keeping every plate spinning. Being productive all the time. But I realized balance is quieter than that. It’s about doing the right things at the right time.

I also talked about living in seasons. At the time, I thought seasons were an alternative to balance.

Now, halfway through the year, I think they’re the same thing.

And life has made sure I learned that lesson.

If you had told January me that by July I’d be seven months pregnant, less than three months away from meeting my daughter, packing up a house, preparing to move, and completely rearranging my life, I probably would’ve laughed.

That wasn’t on my vision board.

Neither was putting school on pause.

Neither was stepping away from work.

Neither was preparing to move.

At the beginning of the year, Hector and I were renting a house with a roommate. Now we’re packing up our lives and preparing for one of the biggest transitions we’ve ever faced.

For a little while, we’ll actually be living in separate states while we figure out this next chapter. If you’ve been following along, you already know the circumstances behind that decision, but that doesn’t make it any less emotional. It’s not how either of us imagined spending the final stretch of my pregnancy, but it’s the decision that makes the most sense for our family right now.

Between packing boxes, preparing for a baby who’s due in September, attending what feels like endless doctor’s appointments, and trying to process how much life can change in just six months, I’ve had to accept that I simply can’t do everything.

And maybe that’s the point.

Life rarely asks if your plans are convenient.

It just changes.

This year has looked nothing like I expected, and honestly, there have been moments where I’ve felt guilty about that. Guilty that I haven’t been reading as much. Guilty that I’m not checking goals off as quickly as I’d hoped. Guilty that so much of my energy has gone toward simply making it through the day.

But then I remembered something I wrote back in January.

Alignment means letting your priorities match the season you’re actually in.

Well…

This season isn’t about hustle.

It’s about growing a human.

It’s about preparing for motherhood.

It’s about creating a home where our daughter will take her first nap, celebrate her first holidays, and make memories we’ll tell her about years from now.

It’s about taking care of my body, even on the days when pregnancy feels exhausting. It’s about accepting that rest is productive when your body is literally building another person.

As for those ten goals I set…

Well…

I’ve completed exactlyĀ zeroĀ of them.

Not one.

And surprisingly?

I’m okay with that.

I startedĀ Iron FlameĀ back in January and… I’m still reading it. Mommy brain is real, and every time I pick it up, I feel like I have to reread the last chapter because I’ve forgotten what happened. At this point, I think I’ve spent more time carrying the book around than actually reading it.

Running a 5K while pregnant was obviously never going to happen.

Working out three times a week turned into, ā€œDid I remember to take my prenatal vitamin today?ā€

Trying twenty new recipes sounded so exciting in January. Then pregnancy food aversions hit, and suddenly half the foods I normally loved made me nauseous. Add in my gestational diabetes diagnosis—which I’ve already ranted about on this blog—and experimenting in the kitchen became the last thing I wanted to do.

The passport?

Still don’t have one.

The tattoo?

That can wait until after pregnancy.

The hikes, the spa days, the giant canvas painting…

None of them happened.

A few months ago, I think I would’ve looked at this list and called the year a failure.

Now?

I don’t.

Because the goals I actually accomplished were never on that list.

I’ve grown a healthy little girl for seven months.

I’ve made it through countless appointments, blood sugar checks, and more medical advice than I ever thought I’d receive in one year.

I’ve advocated for myself when something didn’t feel right.

I’ve prepared for a move during one of the biggest life transitions I’ve ever experienced.

I’ve made difficult decisions for my family, even when they weren’t the decisions I originally wanted to make.

None of those things can be checked off in a resolutions list.

But they’re still accomplishments.

Maybe even bigger ones than the goals I wrote down in January.

At the start of the year, I said this wasn’t about a fresh start. It was about a continuation—a softer, more honest one.

I don’t think I fully understood what I meant back then.

I do now.

Alignment isn’t about having everything under control.

It’s about giving yourself permission to change when life changes.

The second half of 2026 is going to ask even more of me than the first.

I’ll become a mom.

We’ll settle into a new home.

Hector and I will hopefully be back in the same state after this temporary season apart.

None of it will be easy.

But for the first time in a long time, I don’t feel like I’m fighting the season I’m in.

I’m just trying to live it well.

And I think that’s exactly what alignment was trying to teach me all along.

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Imbolc: Learning, Light, And A Little Holy Curiosity

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February 1–2 marks Imbolc (also spelled Imbolg), a Celtic pagan festival that sits right in that liminal, cozy-but-hopeful space between the winter solstice and the spring equinox. It’s the halfway point where the light starts stretching its legs again, the earth begins to soften, and—very practically—ewes begin to lactate. Life is stirring. Hope is loading.

I’ll be honest upfront: I’m Christian. Grew up in the church girl energy. But I’m also deeply curious, deeply respectful, and lucky to have pagan friends who celebrate the Wheel of the Year with intention and reverence. So consider this less a declaration and more a learning moment—me pulling up a chair, lighting a candle, and saying, ā€œTell me more.ā€

What Is Imbolc, Really?

Imbolc is an ancient agricultural fire festival marking the beginning of springtime. The word Imbolc is often translated as ā€œin the bellyā€ā€”and no, not winter lockdown dad bods—but pregnant ewes. In the agricultural calendar, this is when spring begins to whisper instead of shout. The soil brightens. Sowing starts. The sacred feminine aspect of nature reemerges after the long darkness of winter.

In Ireland, February 1st has long been significant, dating back to the Celtic twilight. Over time, like many pre-Christian traditions, Imbolc was absorbed into the Catholic Church and rebranded as the Feast of St. Brigid—part reverence, part survival tactic, part historical erasure (depending on who you ask).

Brigid: Goddess, Saint, Feminine Powerhouse

Before she was Saint Brigid, she was Brigid the goddess—a pagan fire deity associated with healing, poetry, fertility, and smithcraft. When Christianity spread, her stories didn’t disappear; they were re-skinned. You could fill several books with Brigid’s miracles as a saint, many of which read like thinly veiled Celtic myths wearing a Catholic cardigan.

What matters most to me isn’t debating theology—it’s what Brigid represents. She embodies the sacred importance of women in the cycle of life, the reflection of the divine in humanity, and the reality that feminine authority has always existed, even when institutions tried to minimize it. Let’s be real: official roles of authority for women in Christianity are… limited. Brigid stands as a reminder that women have always carried wisdom, power, and light.

Why Imbolc Hits Different This Year

It’s been a miserable winter for so many families—emotionally, financially, spiritually. The kind of winter that lingers in your bones. Imbolc doesn’t promise instant joy or overnight transformation. It promises something quieter but maybe more important: the reminder that the darkness is not permanent.

The sun will rise again.

Imbolc marks that halfway point—when the earth awakens just enough to remind us that new beginnings are possible. A time for healing. A time for rebirth. A time to gently ask yourself: What do I want to nurture this year?

Traditional Ways to Celebrate Imbolc

Whether you’re pagan, Christian, spiritual-but-tired, or just here for the vibes, these traditions are about intention and care:

  • Lighting candles to welcome the returning light
  • Spring cleaning (physically and emotionally—yes, that includes your Notes app)
  • Setting intentions for the year ahead
  • Crafting Brigid’s Cross for protection and blessings
  • Celebrating with dairy foods like milk, butter, and cheese (ewes walked so we could snack)

A Modern Take (Because We Live Here Now)

In today’s world, Imbolc can be a pause. A planning moment. A quiet check-in before the chaos of spring. It mirrors the earth’s preparation for planting—nothing flashy yet, just steady, intentional groundwork.

How You Might Observe Imbolc

  • Clean and clear your home or altar space
  • Light a few candles and sit with the glow
  • Journal about what you want to bring forth this year
  • Honor Brigid with offerings of milk, bread, or poetry (yes, poetry counts as devotion)

From Me to You

May Brigid lend us her healing light.
May the fires of Imbolc—fires of healing, rebirth, and renewal—fill you with joy.
May her light bring love and laughter into your days.

Whether you call it Imbolc, the Feast of St. Brigid, or just a much-needed sign that winter is loosening its grip, I hope this season brings you hope, healing, and happiness.

Hang on in there.

Blessed be, merry meet, and merry part.
The light is coming back. 🌱

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My 2026 Word of the Year and Resolutions

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My word for 2026 is: Alignment.

I used to think balance meant doing all the things, all the time—keeping every plate spinning and calling it success. But now I know balance is quieter than that. It’s about doing theĀ rightĀ things, at theĀ rightĀ time.

For a long time, I talked about living in seasons as an alternative to balance. Now I see it differently. Operating in seasons isn’t avoiding balance—it’s the gateway to it. It’s the pathway to peace.

Alignment, for me, means letting my energy, priorities, and capacity match the season I’m actually in. It’s about listening instead of forcing, choosing what fits instead of what simply looks good, and trusting that not everything needs my attention all at once.

Alignment is living with ease—allowing life’s current to guide me and trusting that when I follow my soul, things unfold the way they’re meant to.

In 2026, I’m choosing alignment over overwhelm. Presence over pressure. And peace over perfection.

And honestly? I need that—because I ended 2025… not great.

I’m not talking to Hector’s family. I’ve drifted from a few friends. I didn’t go to my mom’s for Christmas. Most of December I was sick, stuck inside, watching the days blur together instead of actually living them.

I ended up in the hospital recently, hoping for answers about what’s been going on with meĀ now—and instead I got a full highlight reel of everything else. Pre-diabetic. Low iron (which I already knew). Low vitamin D (no surprise when I barely leave the house). Six medications. A lot of charts, a lot of numbers, and the very humbling realization that I haven’t really been showing up for my health the way I should.

I’m not working right now, and I won’t be going back to school in February either. That sentence still feels strange to type. It wasn’t the plan. None of this was.

But this isn’t me giving up. This is me pausing.

I want 2026 to be better—not in a ā€œnew year, new meā€ way, but in a quieter, more realistic way. The kind of better that looks like taking my meds, going outside, keeping appointments, choosing rest without guilt, and rebuilding slowly instead of burning myself out trying to fix everything at once.

Last year I made 25 resolutions and completed six of them. And honestly? Six is more than zero. So this year I’m not dragging all 19 unfinished goals with me like emotional carry-on luggage. I’m choosing ten. Just ten. The ones that still matter. The ones that feel possible. The ones that support the version of me who is tired—but trying.

This isn’t a fresh start.
It’s a continuation.
A softer one.
A more honest one.

  • ReadĀ 30 books
  • Run aĀ 5K
  • WriteĀ 100 blog posts
  • Get aĀ tattoo
  • Get myĀ passport
  • Paint on aĀ large canvas
  • TryĀ 20 new recipes
  • GoĀ hiking once a month
  • ScheduleĀ one spa day each month
  • Work outĀ three times a week

That’s it. Ten goals for a year that’s about choosing what fits, honoring the season I’m in, and building a life that feels steady, creative, and kind to me.

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Running on Empty

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Exactly one month ago, I declared—loudly and confidently—that I was going to train for a 5K.

It was supposed to be a thing. A routine. A little plotline for my summer. The start of a new arc where I was going to become that girl—disciplined, glowy, hydrated, jogging through the neighborhood at sunrise while vibing to a playlist called ā€œ5K Slay.ā€

But instead?

Here’s what actually happened:

  • A few half-hearted walks.
  • A couple of nights doom-scrolling beginner runner TikTok instead of going to bed.
  • Multiple ā€œthis is the week I startā€ pep talks… followed by zero actual running.

And then—nothing.

Just regular life. And depression.

And the quiet, constant ache of wanting to want things—but not quite being able to push myself through the fog.

There’s a word I’m looking for here—not motivation, not even discipline exactly, but that thing that lets you make yourself do something even when you don’t feel like it. The internal push. The engine. The whatever-it-is that people seem to be born with or build or brute-force into their bones.

I think I lost mine somewhere between burnout, sadness, and too many ā€œmaybe tomorrowā€ mornings.

To be clear, this wasn’t just a case of ā€œI got busy.ā€

This was a full-body shutdown.

That fuzzy, foggy, gently-doomed feeling where everything is technically fine but somehow still feels like a cursed Sims save file.

And now it’s August.

Which hasn’t brought peace or renewal or momentum—but rather, a soft, creeping sense of doom.

Like I’m standing in the middle of a slow, sad montage where nothing is exactly wrong, but everything still feels like it’s unraveling. Not dramatically. Just… quietly. Just enough to make everything feel heavy.

I’m not trying to be dramatic—okay, maybe a little—but this month already feels like Little Miss Sunshine: emotionally unstable, slightly chaotic, and featuring an ensemble cast of tired people just trying their best. Everyone’s hanging on by a thread, the van won’t start without a push, and no one really knows what’s happening—but we’re still rolling forward, somehow. Just picture me in the metaphorical backseat, wearing heart-shaped sunglasses and trying to stay hopeful while everything teeters between disaster and weird, scrappy triumph.

To be fair, it’s not just me spiraling.

Hector’s been going through it too.

He’s still job hunting, and the stress of that alone is enough. But add to that the fact that his car was completely totaled (he’s okay, thankfully—the car is not), and we’re officially in ā€œwhen it rains, it poursā€ territory.

He did get a job lead and passed the drug test (yay!).

But then… they found protein in his urine.

Which can mean kidney disease.

Which, for a guy who’s had kidney stones since he was a kid, is more than a little terrifying.

Naturally, I’ve been down a 1 a.m. rabbit hole Googling ā€œcan kidney stones cause kidney diseaseā€ like I’m studying for the MCAT. Spoiler: the answer is somewhere between sometimes? and maybe not?—which is so comforting, thank you WebMD.

So yeah. I’m not running a 5K this month.

I’m running errands.

Running out of patience.

Running on iced coffee and borrowed serotonin.

But I’m still here.

Still wanting to become the version of me who set that goal.

Still trying to believe in her, even if she’s currently curled up under a blanket, Googling ā€œhow to runaway from your life.ā€

The 5K may happen.

Maybe August will calm the hell down.

Maybe I’ll start by just walking. Or stretching. Or drinking water like someone who has a plan.

For now, I’m letting this post be the progress report.

A soft check-in.

A quiet reminder that some months are for thriving, and some months are for surviving—and both are still valid.

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Driven to Chaos

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Today is literally August 1st—so no, August hasn’t slipped away just yet. But I’m already catching that ā€œaugust slipped away into a moment in timeā€ energy. The kind that feels soft and golden-hour-tinted. Like something is shifting. Not in a bad way—more like in a slow, dreamy, becoming sort of way. And while I’m not exactly running through gardens in a white dress (yet), I am romanticizing the quiet chaos of right now in full romcom montage mode. Let’s catch up.

Plot twist of the month: Hector got into a car accident. He’s totally fine (thankfully!), but his car? Completely totaled. So now we’re officially a one-car household. We could probably swing a used car for like $5,000 or less, but the reality is wild—most of these ā€œbudgetā€ cars start at $7K before taxes and fees. The math is mathing, and the math is saying, ā€œlol no.ā€ So for now, we’re making it work. Lots of shared calendar invites, schedule negotiations, and hoping I don’t accidentally double-book myself across town like I’m in a 2000s romcom montage and not, you know, real life. Maybe a miracle Craigslist find? TBD.

Originally, we were planning to move. New place, fresh start, all that good stuff. But with everything going on (see: car chaos), we decided to renew our lease through January. And honestly? What a relief. Trying to pack up and move while planning a wedding felt like the worst kind of challenge round on a reality show. So we’re staying put for a bit longer. No boxes, no moving trucks, no new address forms—just a little more breathing room.

If you’ve been following along, you already know—we’re getting married on Halloween! šŸŽƒ It’s spooky and romantic and very us. And while I am a world-class procrastinator (hi), the big stuff is surprisingly already taken care of. It’s really just the little details left—and maybe the occasional internal scream when I realize how close it actually is. But still. It’s happening. It’s so soon. And I’m trying not to freak out… while also quietly freaking out. In a cute, celebratory way.

This month also marks the start of a new chapter for Hector—he’s joining me as school kicks back into session and will be starting CNC training soon. It feels like a big, exciting step for him (and for us), and I’m so proud to be cheering him on as he dives into something new.

This month, I finally started branching out beyond Instagram. I’m dipping my toes into TikTok, poking around on Twitter again, and playing with YouTube Shorts (which feels like the digital version of public karaoke). It’s been fun, chaotic, slightly overwhelming, but also kind of freeing. I’m giving myself permission to just try things—no pressure to be perfect or go viral. Just sharing what I love, how I love, where I want. That’s the goal.

If you saw my July & August reading plans, you know I set myself up with a pretty dreamy little list. I didn’t finish everything in July, but I’m rolling those reads into August and hoping to spend more time tucked away with a good book and less time doomscrolling. Reading always helps me reset when life feels loud, and right now, I’m craving that quiet.

Honestly, with all the chaos going on, the only thing I’m really allowing myself to get excited about (while trying not to get my hopes up too much) is that pumpkin spice will be back on the shelves soon. I need it. It’s like the universe’s little promise that fall is coming, and maybe things will calm down a bit… or at least taste a little better.

August feels like it could be that girl. She’s calm, she’s confident, she’s carrying a clipboard but somehow still barefoot in a field. I’m walking into this month a little tired, a little hopeful, and honestly, proud of how I’ve been adapting to so much change at once. Life lately hasn’t been super aesthetic or tied up in a bow—but it’s been real, and good, and growing in all the right ways.

How was your July? What are you looking forward to this month? Drop a comment or DM me—I’d love to hear about the little things keeping you grounded or excited right now.

Here’s to slow mornings, miracle Craigslist finds, and maybe not spiraling when someone asks about the wedding timeline. Happy August. šŸ‘āœØ

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2025 Midyear Check-In: Progress in Real Time šŸ’«

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Hey there! Can you believe we’re already halfway through 2025? Time feels like it’s flying by, but sometimes, growing and changing feels like a slow dance.Ā 

At the start of the year, I made a few intentions and goals—not just your typical resolutions, but gentle reminders to take care of myself and embrace life a bit more intentionally, with resilience and joy. Here’s a peek at my Resilience Goals for this year:

– Practice mindfulness and soak in the present moment.

– Discover more about myself with a curious heart.

– Keep things in perspective and stay grounded.

– Treat self-care as a must, not a luxury.

– Look after both my physical and mental well-being.

– Express myself freely, playfully, and honestly.

I haven’t been flawless (who is, right?), but I’ve found small yet meaningful ways to weave these practices into my life. Sometimes, that just means journaling, and other times, it’s as simple as remembering to drink water and take a deep breath before reacting. Every bit counts!

Now, let’s talk about my lighthearted ā€œ2025 Bingo Cardā€ā€”it’s a fun mix of real goals, whimsical dreams, and a sprinkle of chaos to keep things lively. Here’s how it’s shaping up so far:

āœ… What I’ve Done (or am doing):

– Joined a book club – Technically, I started one myself. Power move!

– Reduced spending – Well, when everything gets pricey, that’s a win!

– Made some DIY vanilla syrup – Who knew I’d become a barista?

– Drinking more water – It’s a work in progress, but my water bottle is always nearby.

– Saving money – Kind of? Let’s say I’m giving it a solid effort!

šŸ”„ What’s Still in Progress:

– Teaching Hector to dance – We’re both trying; it’s a fun journey!

– Getting my passport – It’s on my to-do list.

– Running a 5K – I downloaded a running app. Does that count?

– Writing 100 blogs – You’re reading one right now! We are at 57 blogs currently!!

– Restarting my YouTube channel – Stay tuned for that!

– Get a tattoo – Got some exciting design ideas brewing.

– Learning a new language – Slowly but surely, with Duolingo cheering me on. Do we still support Duolingo? I know they became like AI first, and I don’t know how I feel about that. ļæ¼

– Losing 60 pounds – Taking my time with kindness and respect for myself.

Here’s the truth: I can be a bit impatient. Like, ā€œWhy haven’t I transformed overnight just because I journaled a couple of times and drank water for three days?ā€ levels of impatient.Ā 

I want everything to happen fast—the growth, the glow-up, the results—all of it! But here’s the lesson I keep bumping into: good things take time. Not everything needs to bloom in January, March, or even July. Some goals are like little seeds, quietly working underground where no one can see them, including me.

And while that’s tough, it’s so important. Flowers don’t rush; they bloom when they’re ready. Maybe it’s time for me to stop fussing about the soil and just keep watering, showing up, and trusting the process.

So, if you find yourself wondering, ā€œWhy isn’t it happening faster?ā€ take a deep breath. You’re not behind—you’re just in the beautiful process of becoming. Yes, it can be frustratingly slow at times, but it’s so real, and absolutely worth it.Ā 

Here’s to soft discipline, fun goals, unfinished checklists, and learning to trust that time isn’t the enemy. šŸ’«

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From June Chaos to July Goals: A Life Check-In

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If you’ve been hanging around here for a while, you know I like to do these monthly check-ins when I need a little accountability or, let’s be real, a boost of motivation. So here I am, a few days early, but I’m rolling with it. Honestly, June was a lot. And I’m hoping July will give me some breathing room, but with the move coming up in August, I kind of already know it’s not going to be chill.

June was a bit of a rollercoaster. There were so many emotional conversations, like, too many. And not the cute, deep talks that leave you feeling like you’ve connected with your soul, but the kind that leave you drained and questioning life. I had a breakdown or two—maybe three? Who’s counting?—and it felt like each new challenge just kept piling on top of the last one. The whole situation with my dad escalated faster than I was ready for, and that knocked me off my feet more than I’d like to admit. Then there was this big conversation with Hector about life and feelings. It was one of those moments where I knew his communication wasn’t his strength, but wow, realizing how much that gets in the way was eye-opening—and frustrating. It left me feeling emotionally exhausted, but in a weird way, it was also kind of a breakthrough. Like, I learned something about myself in that mess.

Work-wise, I’m stepping into a bigger role as Assistant Front Office Manager… or something like that. Trying to explain it without giving myself a headache is a struggle, but basically, I’m doing more and trying to make it work. The job itself and the paycheck are definitely blessings, but I can’t shake this feeling that I want more. It’s one of those ā€œI’m grateful, but also… is this it?ā€ kind of moments. So, I’m focusing on the small wins right now, even when they don’t feel like enough. It’s been a month of emotional exhaustion, but there have also been a couple of moments where I’ve gotten some clarity about what I need to work on—personally and professionally.

As I move into July, I’m really trying to shake off that defeated feeling and focus on the good stuff coming my way. There’s a lot to look forward to, like my niece’s birthday, a trip to Vegas to see my mom, stepdad, and nephews (which is honestly a little bit of a happy chaos), and the chance to try on my wedding dress—huge, emotional moment there. Hector’s parents are coming back from their trip to Honduras, and we’re finally going to start planning the wedding with their help. It’s a backyard wedding, but for some reason, I keep trying to make it feel more grand, and I’m trying to remind myself to just keep it simple. But it’s my wedding, and I want it to feel magical, so there’s that.

For July, my goals are super basic but important: turn in my homework on time, stay on top of my online class, find a place to move by the 20th (no big deal, right?), and, most importantly, focus on my mental health. I’m also hoping to build better relationships with my in-laws, which I know will help with some of the stress I’ve been carrying. Small update on that front: everything I thought I knew was wrong. But I’m not diving into that right now, we’ll leave that mystery for another time. And, because I’m a glutton for punishment, I’m planning to restart my journals and finally get back to my YouTube channel. I posted a video three weeks ago, but honestly, consistency is tough when you don’t know how to edit, but that’s just a little thing I’ll figure out. The only way to learn is to try, right? So here we go.

As for what I’ll write about next month? I have no clue. Life has a funny way of showing up and telling me what I need to share, so we’ll see where the blog and my thoughts take me. I’ll definitely try to post more recipes, though, now that my oven is (finally) working again. That’s a whole other blog-worthy story, but for now, let’s just say, it’s been a journey.

Until next time, stay cozy, stay chaotic, and remember—sometimes the most comforting thing is knowing you’re not the only one spiraling. šŸ’•

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Weekly Reflections: Cultivating Mindfulness and Emotional Resilience

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Things have been a bit chaotic in the U.S. lately, and it often feels like the news is full of negativity. This can be especially tough for anyone dealing with depression. I recently lost my job, which really sent me into a tailspin. But I’ve decided to embrace mindfulness to help bring some balance back into my life. This year, my focus is on being more mindful and resilient—it’s even my ā€œword of the yearā€!Ā 

Mindfulness isn’t just about meditation; it’s also about reflecting on the positives and challenges, appreciating those little moments, and learning as I go. I’ve been asking myself some important questions like, ā€œHow has my week been so far?ā€ and ā€œAm I avoiding anything important that I should tackle?ā€ I also celebrate even the smallest achievements with questions like, ā€œWhat were my biggest wins this week?ā€

Here are just a few highlights from my week that might seem simple but really mean a lot to me: I worked 40 hours and read 300 pages of my new book, treating myself to a delicious Cava salad afterward. Although my new job has some communication hiccups, I’m sharing my ideas for improvement instead of complaining. And I’m proud to say I managed not to argue with my roommates this week! It takes a lot of strength to hold back and avoid conflict, even when I feel I’m in the right.Ā 

That said, I have to admit I’m also avoiding responsibilities, especially regarding money. I sometimes wish I could pretend everything is fine, even though it’s not. It might be worse, but I’m definitely struggling with stress. Still, I believe that taking the time for this weekly reflection will help me feel more in control of my depression.

What I truly wish to take from my reflections—and what I hope others can embrace, too, if they choose to do weekly reflections—is the value of mindfulness. It’s important to notice and name those uncomfortable emotions like sadness, fear, and shame without feeling the need to resist or hide from them. I understand how daunting it can be to face these feelings, but I want to cultivate a greater awareness of my emotions rather than letting fear dictate my response. It’s about finding a way to respond to our feelings with kindness and understanding toward ourselves and others.