If you’ve been hanging around here for a while, you know I like to do these monthly check-ins when I need a little accountability or, let’s be real, a boost of motivation. So here I am, a few days early, but I’m rolling with it. Honestly, June was a lot. And I’m hoping July will give me some breathing room, but with the move coming up in August, I kind of already know it’s not going to be chill.
June was a bit of a rollercoaster. There were so many emotional conversations, like, too many. And not the cute, deep talks that leave you feeling like you’ve connected with your soul, but the kind that leave you drained and questioning life. I had a breakdown or two—maybe three? Who’s counting?—and it felt like each new challenge just kept piling on top of the last one. The whole situation with my dad escalated faster than I was ready for, and that knocked me off my feet more than I’d like to admit. Then there was this big conversation with Hector about life and feelings. It was one of those moments where I knew his communication wasn’t his strength, but wow, realizing how much that gets in the way was eye-opening—and frustrating. It left me feeling emotionally exhausted, but in a weird way, it was also kind of a breakthrough. Like, I learned something about myself in that mess.
Work-wise, I’m stepping into a bigger role as Assistant Front Office Manager… or something like that. Trying to explain it without giving myself a headache is a struggle, but basically, I’m doing more and trying to make it work. The job itself and the paycheck are definitely blessings, but I can’t shake this feeling that I want more. It’s one of those “I’m grateful, but also… is this it?” kind of moments. So, I’m focusing on the small wins right now, even when they don’t feel like enough. It’s been a month of emotional exhaustion, but there have also been a couple of moments where I’ve gotten some clarity about what I need to work on—personally and professionally.
As I move into July, I’m really trying to shake off that defeated feeling and focus on the good stuff coming my way. There’s a lot to look forward to, like my niece’s birthday, a trip to Vegas to see my mom, stepdad, and nephews (which is honestly a little bit of a happy chaos), and the chance to try on my wedding dress—huge, emotional moment there. Hector’s parents are coming back from their trip to Honduras, and we’re finally going to start planning the wedding with their help. It’s a backyard wedding, but for some reason, I keep trying to make it feel more grand, and I’m trying to remind myself to just keep it simple. But it’s my wedding, and I want it to feel magical, so there’s that.
For July, my goals are super basic but important: turn in my homework on time, stay on top of my online class, find a place to move by the 20th (no big deal, right?), and, most importantly, focus on my mental health. I’m also hoping to build better relationships with my in-laws, which I know will help with some of the stress I’ve been carrying. Small update on that front: everything I thought I knew was wrong. But I’m not diving into that right now, we’ll leave that mystery for another time. And, because I’m a glutton for punishment, I’m planning to restart my journals and finally get back to my YouTube channel. I posted a video three weeks ago, but honestly, consistency is tough when you don’t know how to edit, but that’s just a little thing I’ll figure out. The only way to learn is to try, right? So here we go.
As for what I’ll write about next month? I have no clue. Life has a funny way of showing up and telling me what I need to share, so we’ll see where the blog and my thoughts take me. I’ll definitely try to post more recipes, though, now that my oven is (finally) working again. That’s a whole other blog-worthy story, but for now, let’s just say, it’s been a journey.
Until next time, stay cozy, stay chaotic, and remember—sometimes the most comforting thing is knowing you’re not the only one spiraling. 💕
