Hello,
Today I am super manic. I only realized after announcing to my boyfriend this morning that I wanted to buy a car, go back to school, and start a religious podcast.
It’s a mess but let’s get into it.
I’m starting with the one that is the most random. A podcast- a religious one at that is not something most people would expect from me. But I have a lot to say, both good and bad about being a Christain.
I have gone through a lot regarding religion, and I feel like others have. So maybe it’s time to talk about it. Please get rid of some anger at having religion shoved down our throats. I want to speak with some of my friends who decided no religion was better than one. How do people keep their faith in 2022? I have many questions and things I want to discuss, but maybe it wouldn’t be that interesting. I want a safe space to discuss religious trauma. Also, I’ve been told a few times that I have a pleasant voice for a podcast so let’s put that to the test. I’ll announce more about that when I get more information on starting a podcast.
If you know me personally, I’ve been debating going to school for the last few years and, in 2020, decided I no longer wanted to go to school. I went to school, was great at school, and then dropped out because I was depressed and put too much pressure on myself. I said going to college isn’t for me.
As soon as I said I wanted to go back to school, I instantly started to overthink. Do I want that again? Am I too old to go to college? I have already gone to school for three years. All of my friends have graduated or are graduating. I’ll be the only person I know going back to school. Will I have to start over? Am I overthinking all of this? Yes.
I have a full-time job now, and I don’t plan on leaving yet, but I think a degree would be helpful with the blog and maybe moving forward in a different career path. I would love to become a full-time content creator. I would love to be able to be my own social media manager rather than have to hire someone to help me along the way.
Im going back to school because I want to. You 10000% do not need to go to college. It’s not for everyone.
But if I want to go to school, I have to get a car. My boyfriend and brother are tired of driving me everywhere, and I don’t blame them. have you seen the gas price right now?
I can’t use driving apps anymore because they are too expensive. I will use a ride app to get to work at 6 am, and I’ve paid up to $50. Because there were fewer drivers or whatever else the stupid app said. I can’t pay $50 a day for five days a week.
The thing is, I was super excited to start driving. I just got my driver’s license, but I had an accident and no longer wanted to drive. It wasn’t even a car accident. I just scraped my friend’s car that I was driving when I was entering a very narrow garage.
The car owner was even like, “Don’t trip; you drove great, and my garage is hard to get into. Don’t worry about it.” I didn’t listen, and I constantly worried about it. I also worry about driving my boyfriend’s car and maybe messing with that car, too—I’m a little paranoid about possibly crashing a vehicle again.
I need a small car with a small hood and a seat that I can raise; I think I’ll be comfortable driving again.
